Today you fly across the country. Today you take the steps to chase after something. To pursue a happiness you do not believe you can have where you are.
When you told me, I said that everything you needed was inside of you, that we make our happiness. It seems like I don't understand what you feel, but believe me when I say that nobody knows more about the suffering in your heart than me, and none on Earth could possibly ail to remedy your pain so badly as myself.
Nothing can make you stay. You were already gone the day you made that choice.
So I simply want an opportunity to say that you taught me more about love than anybody to have loved me- because you taught me without loving me. You set me on fire, and I never burned out.
That love is not an emotion, but an action based on an emotion we cannot possibly put into words. When you made it clear that me suffering over you not loving me, was making you suffer, I had to learn to put it aside. To just love you and keep loving you, and show you that I love you, no matter what man came into your life and left you. That, to love you, I never needed anything from you- that all I needed, was to do; was to simply go ahead and love you, and let go of my standards of what love had to be.
I never kissed you, I never held your hand, I never hugged you, but every time we spoke... every time we laughed, cried, smiled, or hurt each other, was a life time of happiness in a moment. Every day with you was as if I had met you, grown old with you, and died with you, and that I would do it again tomorrow, and the day after, until time stopped.
I hope you find what you are looking for. I hope he's the one for you. But most of all, I just hope that you are happy.
I will love you until the day I perish, and every life after.
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